My Tools

Miniseries | My Tools

The pieces collected on this page weren’t written to inspire—but to inform, to bear witness. Each one is part reflection, part confession, part survival manual written after the fire. Not while it was burning. After. When you’re left with what’s still standing and the quiet question: what now?

The broader Tools series began as an effort to name the systems and structures that govern our lives. But as I wrote, I realized most people avoid examining the things I was exploring—and that I could only do it because I had built my own systems, values, and tools to hold the weight of that examination. Detachment, silence, strategic disengagement—not as virtues, but as instruments I learned to wield. Some were forged years ago in desperation. Others passed down through trauma. A few, I had to make myself when nothing else worked.

Together, they form a kind of interior toolkit for navigating a world that wounds casually and heals conditionally.

Let’s be clear. These aren’t clean solutions. They’re scars with handles. Implements carved from the hard truth that survival sometimes requires disconnection, that growth often comes dressed as loss, and that peace is not always gentle. Read them not as doctrine, but as field notes from someone still learning how to stay intact without going numb.